Lately has been manic. Being back at work is messing everything up! I'm jiggling 100 balls and I'm tired, but happy and that's the main thing. I have been doing extra night shifts and on calls so that I have spending money for my birthday trip away – my other half has arranged as a birthday treat for us to visit New York in November! Its over thanksgiving and with that comes Black Friday so I'm all over it! I'm already making a list….
In other news my baby is nearly one. I feel so sad about this. I can't believe where a year has gone, I miss feeding her 8 times a day, I miss the putting her in a sling, wearing her and her being close to me all day, I miss it all! She now is coming to the end of breast feeding as I feed her once a day maybe, she does still go in her wrap or sling but she's nosy, she has to look out! No tree frog position for us anymore. She's walking, a few steps a time but still. Slow down time, I can't keep up. As its her birthday soon I'm making a big fuss. Were having a tea party, I'm scouring Pinterest for hours (its so addictive) and in all honestly I think I should give up this midwifery lark and become a party planner. I love arranging, I love pretty things. Look what I made earlier.. Home made bunting.
I've found some cool blogs this week too, if you like parenting, midwifery and the like then hold tight, ill post about these blogs later.
I came across a great blog the other day, via Facebook (which is where I find a good few blogs) and I could've written the post myself. I've written posts here before how my parenting style this time around has been a little different from my second baby, but a lot different from my first time. I was having a conversation at work a who ago with a colleague (waves at Hannah :-)) and she asked why some things I've been specifically different about. Its definitely a combination, its not just one thing. Firstly experience, I've had 2 babies before and as times wore on and I've got older (and wiser) I am not trying to please anyone but my baby and me. I am doing what feels right, not what i think i should be doing / what a book says / what my friend did. I'm being baby led and it makes for a happy baby (and isn't having a baby about tuning into their needs and nurturing them?) and in turn a happy me and happy house. Also the sad things that have happened to us this past year have made me extremely grateful for my family, and our health. I take nothing for granted. You get one chance so make the most of it, don't rush their baby days, cuddle them, sleep in with them. Let your kids stay up late once in a while, make the most of it.
I'm also a midwife, which means I don't always jump feet first into a choice, I research it first! I see being a parent like being a midwife, its lifelong learning. You may try something, don't like it or do like it. You may find what didnt work for one child works for another. You learn all the time.
If anyone doesn't like the way I do things then I don't give two hoots! Its a shame doing things the way nature intended causes people to be so opinionated. As a family we are a really happy bunch these days, yeah we have off days like everyone else but we enjoy being a little team and I'm grateful.